The End is Near part I

Yeah here we go again.
What's up guys?
It's been a busy and crazy week for me.
Started with my preparation for my future (SNMPTN test), finishing some misunderstanding with my friend and practicing for my last performance with my band in High School.

Yeah, it was a surprise for me. Because I thought there won't be any more band stuff until we finished all the univercity test. But few days ago, Andre text me and told me that Atroce will be playing in our school graduation day. In the first time what I really want to say is "Hell no!". (FYI I really hate to play in front of 61 SHS crowd. Because they don't appreciate a band like us). Plus we'll going to play in front of all the parents. To be honest, I afraid I will make the show fucked up. Yeah sometimes I really enjoy made some show fucked up, but not this time. Not in my school graduation day.

But as I predicted, Andre still forced me to do it. So I was going to say "Dre, you guys can keep playing but without me. Dylan can take my part."( FYI again it's not a rare thing you see my band performed without me, the reason is I hate playing for event that I can't enjoy.) But right before I say that, Andre said "Bi, this will be our last performance. Because after it's all over, not like you guys, I will go to study outside the city. So let's make this performance as our best performance"

What did He say made me think twice. So finally I agreed to make this show as my first and last performance in front of 61 SHS crowd.

And just next day after I agreed to playing in our school graduation day , we immediately practicing in the studio. This is our first practice after months of not playing music. So you can guess that the practice runs a mess. It took 1 hour to re-memorize parts of the song, and it takes 1 hour longer to call it as real practicing.

From the first day in studio I knew what song will we brought in during graduation day later. One is the song 'Rumah Kita' from God Bless. Yeah, the song 'Rumah Kita' was the last time we brought in competition in high school 39 SHS. And I remember I made show going crazy by jumping into the crowd when the song was played
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In the first time there is nothing special about this song but when I sings it with the new arrangements in the studio, I felt a strange feeling. I've never felt like this when I singing 'Rumah Kita' before. But I think I know this feeling is. Yes, this feeling is an empty feeling of a farewell.

Every word in the lyrics make me goosebumps. I don't know it just me or everyone in the band feel it too. But certainly every day I singing this song,  it makes this strange feeling grew stronger. And it getting worse because this feeling mixed with all fell of disappointment and sadness. I don't know why.

Actually in this song did not describe about saying good bye. But the lyrics of "Haruskah kita beranjak ke kota, yang penuh dengan tanya? Lebih baik di sini. Rumah kita sendiri. Segala nikmat dan anugerah yang kuasa, semuanya ada di sini." always successfully make a the strange feeling earlier continue to appear.

I think this song is very appropriate to describe my feelings (or my friends) for living in 61 SHS. Yes, our school is not a perfect school. The entrance to reach the school is crowded and rotten, always make a traffic jam in the morning. The school land is too small if we compared it to the majority of schools with RSBI (Rintisan Sekolah Berstandart Internasional) level. And AC in the class were often dead before noon.

But .... This school is where we grew up. In this school we have many brothers and sisters. In this school we learn about life. Here we learn about love, betrayal, despair, friendship and dreams. 





Damn ..
I'm being too melancholy in this post..
I am not able to finish it now, I'll continue this next time.

To Be Continue....